i cant be alone i have online relationship after online relationship its never ending, i cant remember a time before 4 years ago that i havent been ta...

i cant be alone i have online relationship after online relationship its never ending, i cant remember a time before 4 years ago that i havent been talking to some old man online, why cant i stop? why cant i be alone? why do i feel so hollow and worthless when im alone? i think my purpose is to be something for other people, something good, something bad, something pretty, something frickable, something annoying, something clingy, i dont know. im alone again and im already miserable. i feel like my body isnt something for me, i feel disconnected from everything around me when i dont have someone to share things with. i hate myself

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  1. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    bee pee dee
    how is this not original

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      i dont want some bullshit bpd excuse that every bawd uses, bpd isnt real and i want to know whats actually wrong with me because i need to fix it. ive already dmed some cringe stupid eating disorder fetishist account for attention

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        ok well in that case you have crippling self esteem issues where you base your value on what other people think, probably some attachment issues, and fear of abandonment maybe.
        you need to exposure therapy yourself to being alone more and more until it becomes tolerable

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          i cant tolerate it for that long
          my stomach hurts because nobody is talking to me i just need to feel special and secure i need to have someone dependable i hate hate hate hate hate everything

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            well idk what else to tell you then

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            god ur so mentally ill lets date

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i need to have someone dependable
            Good luck finding that online, and from here of all places.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Go back home idiot

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i am home :c

            >i need to have someone dependable
            Good luck finding that online, and from here of all places.

            i know, its stupid. i dont think id ever find someone dependable here, but i crave online attention from older men

            god ur so mentally ill lets date

            i think its actually how most girls feel

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >I don't think I'd ever find a dependable man in here
            The gall of this one to be a vanity prostitute playing with older men, then make light of their dependability

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Dependable older men are not on /NSFFW/ and honestly both sides deserve what they get. The men get emotionally pumped and dumped and the BPD remains hollow and miserable.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            What does a man do to deserve getting toyed with? I can agree with telling a guy to get over himself and not let himself be so vulnerable, but how does deserve to be tricked and used?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i dont think therapy is for me, ive tried it but it just doesnt work. they cant tell me something i dont already know.
            [...]
            if i was able to be alone for a year, i wouldnt have this problem, not trying to be rude, i appreciate your effort
            [...]
            really?? thank you
            [...]
            what no im sorry i wasnt trying to do that, i dont toy with men, we toy with eachother. i didnt mean to insult anyone
            [...]
            please
            [...]
            nobody actually wants one

            My advice is you should grow up. Especially if you are not going to be with a man then you need to grow out of being a child. You can't say you're playing with each other when you simply won't know how the other guy perceives it. You do bad things because you are immature and avoid blame

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i want to be a kid forever
            i want an older boyfriend that makes me feel like a kid and loves me no matter what

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Children don't hate themselves

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            first post was right, you have bpd and were probably molested as a child, i don't say that with spite, i feel bad for you, you're still a fricking moron though

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i wasnt molested

            be my frickable bangmaid gf, do you live in europe?
            I'm waiting my entire life for a girl to just say she belongs to me and lives with me. how hard can it be JESUS

            what the hell is a bangmaid that sounds depressing is that just someone who sits around your house and gets fricked randomly and discarded
            >do you live in europe?
            yea

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >what the hell is a bangmaid
            he wants you to act like his mom and also let him have sex with you. basically cleaning up after him, making him chicken tendies etc

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >what the hell is a bangmaid that sounds depressing is that just someone who sits around your house and gets fricked randomly and discarded
            sounds like what you do in your post, but the added benefit that you don't get abandoned eventually and you get hugs and cuddles
            >yea
            East europe? You sound like some post soviet girl who is completely mentally deranged from alcoholic parents and genetic trauma.
            Or maybe west and you live in my country, wouldn't that be a nice surprise

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i dont want to give any specific info, but ew im not slavic, i have a great family. are you from france? im not from there but i absolutely love it and i want to live there in the far future

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            not france, more north
            where are you from? Germany or UK?
            whats your bodycount also

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i dont want to give any specific info
            im not saying where i live
            my body count is 2, i know im disgusting and a prostitute already. i dont need to be reminded.

            The certain kind that would get raped while whimpering and crying, but as long as your tears were wiped and you were cuddled, you'd stick around for more instead of running. That's the vibe

            really accurate, i feel content giving off that vibe

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            kek who gives a shit. no one is going to dox you from a pic of your legs and country. I live in romania if you're near let me know

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >im not saying where i live
            why not? imagine there's a robot here living in your country, in your city even you could meet up this sunday, get along, go on a date, you got a boyfriend right there immediately.
            You could have it all right now. No more being alone, no more worries, no more getting used. Just say the word.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >no more getting used
            lmao that's exactly what a robot would be looking to do

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            ive been saying this whole time that i want something organic and not originating from online

            Now that is just too big of a tease.

            how? :c

            Well why don't you start talking about what your interests are outside of being groomed by an older man?

            because i want to complain

            and I guarantee you that there's people out there who really like your atmosphere

            do you put yourself out there much outside of when you're actively seeking people yourself?

            if someone liked my atmospher, id have been approached or even looked at or talked to or flirted with but no. nobody ever does. im not beautiful to anyone. i never put myself out, i never go out or idk i stay home a lot apart from school and the occasional meet up with friends, but im out enough that if i was liked, id have been asked out by now. ive never been asked out naturally. why am i not worth it?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >ive been saying this whole time that i want something organic and not originating from online
            Well so far that hasn't been working out for you has it? Bodycount of 2. Gonna have to be atleast 3 if your next one is who you settle down with, but judging from your character, the final count is gonna be a few multitudes higher. Very sad to see. But oh well. Sucker is born every minute

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            neither of those were natural, i regret them every day and it has impacted my issues so much more, obviously i know that its my fault and ive ruined myself, but it still genuinely depresses me every day. i never wanted to have more than this, i thought my last boyfriend would stay, but it didnt work. i will not have sex with anyone else until im sure theyll be here for good, because i dont want to be some bawd with a high body count, another reason to be unwanted.

            You aren't asked out because men have been told it violates women's privacy. This generation is not raised to approach women. That's nothing wrong with you, that's how it is with meeting people offline. Everything is now done online. Look at this thread, people are throwing themselves at you, there's options available if you take what it is that you're offered.

            i detest people my age for this exact reason, i hate people in my generation, i hate how people are too scared to do anything, but why hasnt an older man approached me? is this what society is like now? i want to be approached. every woman does.

            do you swallow cum and piss? do you do anal? do u shave? how often do u wanna frick? how quick do u cum? whats your dirtiest kink? greentext your first time fricking every guy

            jesus christ

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >why hasnt an older man approached me
            most of them are already in relationships already, and add to that the current social perceptions of males in age gap relationships and your chances here are minimal, if you want an older guy unfortunately you're probably going to have to be the one who initates here and it's going to be hard to be taken seriously because they'll think they're being baited

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i hate everything why cant a nice slightly handsome big older guy talk to me and love me

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i didn't say it was impossible but it's going to be difficult, there are age gap threads on soc and im sure there are other communities you can sniff around in, you'll need to be careful you don't end off getting manipulated by someone who knows how to play girls like you though

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i actually cant get played. i let it happen sometimes but i can always tell and avoid real danger or anything unwanted. i dont want to find people on soc thats pathetic, i want something REAL

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            lay it out for me then, what would be the ideal scenario that would fill that void? your confidence is cute and all but just try to be smart when you're up against someone with a ton more experience than you cause it's easy to not see signs when they've got you wrapped round their finger

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i am smart, okay so my ideal scenario is to be out in town on a sunny day after washing my hair so i feel fresh and happy, maybe a little tipsy, just enough for confidence and to reduce my awkwardness, but not enough to be really noticeable. id like someone bigger than me to make me feel small in some way, i dont know how, but to approach me and talk to me for a few minutes and make me laugh, id like to be immediately anle to click with them, id like them to compliment me and ask if id like to go to eat some fruit beside water. id like them to be older than me, mature, but not too old that it would be awkward introducing them to my parents. id like to fall in love with them and them with me and id like to feel secure and loved always, id like someone stable and dependable to be there for me forever

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            that doesn't sound unreasonable or unrealistic but for something like that to play out you need to put yourself in situations where that can happen which it doesn't seem like you're doing currently

            whats with the feeling small part? you into feeling overpowered or controlled? is it a sexual thing or a protective/comforting thing?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i hate going out .. i guess ill try
            i just love feeling small, protected and weak, its both sexual and comforting at different times

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            if it's any comfort you'll only need to do it long enough until you manage to snag your guy and then you can go back to being a comfy homebody

            guess it must feel nice letting go and letting someone else take the lead on everything, most chicks ive been with do that to some degree so I guess that's not too strange even if it's a little on the extreme side for you

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            its not like i want to be a lazy wife who does nothing, i just want to stay home and only talk to my husband, id cook everything for him and make him happy but id want him to tell me what to do to make him happy, i want him to tell me exactly what he wants and likes about me so that i never have to feel insecure or anxious that he doesnt like me

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            yeah I get that, would you not want any friends of your own or hobbies or a part time job doing something you enjoy though? or is it important for you to feel fully dependent on your husband? what about kids?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i have few friends, but i love them. id like to keep my 2 close friends but my husband would be my best friend. id love to have kids, i will have kids in the future obviously. id never want to have a job, but if we needed one for money of course id get one, but id prefer to raise our children and take care of him and our house and keep everyone fed as my job. id like to sketch and paint too, and bake things for the family every day

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            the job was more along the lines of if your artwork took off, not from a money perspective
            sounds like you were born a couple of generations too late, don't think a lot of chicks want to fill the traditional wife role. teaching kids to be independent is super important, and you seem to crave dependece, do you think you could put that aside and teach them properly?

            what if it turned out you weren't sexually compatible with your husband and he wanted you to do stuff you weren't comfortable with?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            ohh well if my artwork took off somehow, that would be great, but if it distracted me from my family then id have to restrict it, i really want to be a mom and i think its my fate to raise a kid in the most perfect environment possible, i dont want a child that i cant connect with and spend time with, id never want to have a nanny or send them off to some child minder. i really think i was born too late, i feel like only older people appreciate my appearance
            if my husband wanted me to do some weird sexual thing i would do it to make him happy even if i was uncomfortable because it would be the least i can do for his stability and love, i detest the idea of anal it just sounds horrible and disgusting but if my husband really wanted to do that, and he was a good partner, like if he worked and took care of me, then i would do it for him

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            well from the sounds of things you're gonna make some guy pretty happy, and I wish my partner would take a page out of your book on the butt stuff but honestly I don't think you've got a lot to worry about, just need to get you into a situation where you can be approached by the kinda guy you want

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I'm an artist too so I wouldn't be against this being your hobby for obvious reasons, and I think it's really good and sweet you want to raise your children how they're supposed to be raised, I work from home and could help you out too, I never want to be in an office job where I'm gone all day and never see my family. what do you mean by appearance, do you dress a certain way? and I'm not into doing anal (unless making you wear a buttplug counts), but I do have a lot of sexual kinks and fantasies and I am constantly horny and would have sex with you multiple times a day, and not just vanilla sex either. I never wear condoms and wouldn't want you on any form of birth control either

            im 18
            i wish to have a promising relationship and be pregnant by my early 20s so that my baby is healthy and happy, i dont want to waste my prime years

            good thing I want a big family then

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            youre an artist!? what is it that you like to do?
            >what do you mean by appearance
            i dont really know how to explain, i feel like my beauty is dated, i feel like my features look like older beauty standards, i get lots of compliments from very old people.
            >Im not into doing anal (unless making you wear a buttplug counts)
            im the same, i would hate hate hate anal but i think butt plugs are kinda cute but embarrassing, id like to wear a bunny tail one some time in my life.
            >I do have a lot of sexual kinks and fantasies
            >not just vanilla sex either
            what sort of kinks? are they strange or offputting or taboo or just not vanilla?
            id really like my husband to be horny a lot, id feel so ugly and undesirable and horrible if my husband didnt use me at least daily

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >youre an artist!? what is it that you like to do?
            cosplay, animation, digital art, traditional art (used to do pencils mainly but am getting into watercolor). I draw a lot of things but the only thing that's ever made me money is nudity and porn
            >im the same, i would hate hate hate anal but i think butt plugs are kinda cute but embarrassing, id like to wear a bunny tail one some time in my life.
            I'm into both petplay and reverse bunny suits so that's perfect for me
            >what sort of kinks? are they strange or offputting or taboo or just not vanilla?
            off the top of my head ones i can mame are petplay, ageplay, bdsm, rape, brainwashing/mindbreak/hypnosis, misogyny, blackmail, recording our own sex tapes/porn, watching porn together, teasing and embarrassment, sex slavery, limitless subs, bruises, wiener worship, breeding and pregnancy
            >id really like my husband to be horny a lot, id feel so ugly and undesirable and horrible if my husband didnt use me at least daily
            you would have to be down to frick whenever i want, if im away from you i will either have your nudes or our sex tapes to jerk off to, you would wear whatever i wanted you to wear, in public that would be traditional feminine clothing or alternative fashion like e-girlta, inside you would either wear extremely revealing outfits or nothing at all. i would basically try to mold you into my perfect completely submissive sex robot

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >cosplay, animation, digital art, traditional art (used to do pencils mainly but am getting into watercolor). I draw a lot of things but the only thing that's ever made me money is nudity and porn
            wowow thats so cool!!!!!! 😮 im getting into watercolour right now aswell, thats so impressive that youve been payed for your art! im very interested in what your art style looks like. i think digital art looks cool, but i feel like when i draw i need to do it on paper, i dislike using screens for my drawing, it feels too limited and i need the paper feel lol. what sort of animation do you do!? that sounds so interesting

            what is a reverse bunny suit? :c
            >petplay, ageplay, bdsm, rape, brainwashing/mindbreak/hypnosis, misogyny, blackmail, recording our own sex tapes/porn, watching porn together, teasing and embarrassment, sex slavery, limitless subs, bruises, wiener worship, breeding and pregnancy
            wow i really really like all of those too! ive never seen someone mention all of these, especially misogyny kink, i really like that but i think its uncommon. the only thing i would feel strange about is the watching porn together, the idea sounds fun but id get so jealous, the girl would in the video would HAVE to be fatter than me -_-
            id adore being told how to dress, i love classic feminine clothing and e-girlta fashion too!

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >what is a reverse bunny suit?
            picrel, it's a bunny suit without the bodysuit basically
            >what sort of animation do you do
            nothing recent, in the past I've done clay, lego, flipnote, stick figures, I've tried blender and sfm in the past but never committed to it
            >the idea sounds fun but id get so jealous, the girl would in the video would HAVE to be fatter than me
            what if she's an anime girl? I like both real porn and hentai
            >id adore being told how to dress
            I forgot to say this in the last post but I'd also make you cosplay characters that I like and frick you in it
            >i really like that but i think its uncommon
            well i have it, and i hate women and would take out my anger of them onto you

            >bruises
            also, i actually used to love how bruises looked so much that id punch my legs and thighs to make bruises for the aesthetic because i bruise easily

            i would make you hide your bruises if you got them in a visible spot because i dont want people to think im an abuser (i mean i am but not in that way)

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >bruises
            also, i actually used to love how bruises looked so much that id punch my legs and thighs to make bruises for the aesthetic because i bruise easily

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            what do you even consider older?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            like 30+, but it depends on their maturity levels too

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >why can't the thing i want just fall onto my lap without any effort?
            grow up

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i am smart, okay so my ideal scenario is to be out in town on a sunny day after washing my hair so i feel fresh and happy, maybe a little tipsy, just enough for confidence and to reduce my awkwardness, but not enough to be really noticeable. id like someone bigger than me to make me feel small in some way, i dont know how, but to approach me and talk to me for a few minutes and make me laugh, id like to be immediately anle to click with them, id like them to compliment me and ask if id like to go to eat some fruit beside water. id like them to be older than me, mature, but not too old that it would be awkward introducing them to my parents. id like to fall in love with them and them with me and id like to feel secure and loved always, id like someone stable and dependable to be there for me forever

            >until im sure theyll be here for good, because i dont want to be some bawd with a high body count, another reason to be unwanted.
            1. you already are
            2. you do not have the skills to pick out which guy is good for you, instead you will gravitate towards the guys that have obvious red flags but you like them because they're risky, exciting and new. You hate predictability, you hate stability. Admit it.
            I knew a bpd girl who is EXACTLY like you.
            If you truly wanted a guy who is good for you, you'd bite the bullet, get to know some guy from NSFFW or soc for a few days before meeting up. But because you are still too picky about this, you cannot and will not find a stable partner.
            You are STILL in your party hoe phase where you want constant attention from Chad, and until you leave that phase and realize that boring equals good, you will not be happy.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            obviously bait im not falling for

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i hate people in my generation, i hate how people are too scared to do anything
            you mean like how you're too scared to approach a guy despite complaining about how unwanted you supposedly are? You don't actually hate passive men. You hate the fact that they remind you of yourself, whom you hate

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            You aren't asked out because men have been told it violates women's privacy. This generation is not raised to approach women. That's nothing wrong with you, that's how it is with meeting people offline. Everything is now done online. Look at this thread, people are throwing themselves at you, there's options available if you take what it is that you're offered.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            take into consideration that young guys these have been getting browbeat about approaching women their entire life and it's not an easy thing to do, putting yourself out like that not knowing if rejection waits at the other side. i bet there's people who want to approach you. and let's be fair, you've got a body count so unless you initiated and forced those to happen, people are attracted to you, ergo other people will be attracted to you. i don't think it's as hopeless and you feel it is

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            How? I "bond" nicely with girls who give off that vibe... But you're too far.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Now that is just too big of a tease.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            do you swallow cum and piss? do you do anal? do u shave? how often do u wanna frick? how quick do u cum? whats your dirtiest kink? greentext your first time fricking every guy

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            you should be okay with time alone, as its an inevitable facet of life
            we come into this world alone and die alone, you need to be able to stand on your own two feet
            i dont think its how the average person feels, and if its id called that the psychopathology of normalcy

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            There's nothing wrong or pathological about what you are describing at all. There's something wrong with other people for making you feel like there is

            wrong guy ahhhhh dont hit me please!!!!!

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        >gets told what is wrong
        >"nooo thats not real i want a fake answer"
        you just want attention and youre fishing for some simp who will ask for your discord

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          its a stupid response and doesnt tell me anything i need to know, im not looking for answers really i just want to vent and cry

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            makes sense. vent and cry then. i dont know what to tell you other than to seek therapy or something, maybe a shrink would be able to explain what is wrong with you

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i dont think therapy is for me, ive tried it but it just doesnt work. they cant tell me something i dont already know.

            you need to end the constant cycle of relationship after relationship, for now
            you must understand that while it may seem hard, you can stand on your own
            it will get easier
            try taking a year off from relationships, focus on yourself, exercise and mediate
            id recommend therapy if you can afford it

            if i was able to be alone for a year, i wouldnt have this problem, not trying to be rude, i appreciate your effort

            There's nothing wrong or pathological about what you are describing at all. There's something wrong with other people for making you feel like there is

            really?? thank you

            >I don't think I'd ever find a dependable man in here
            The gall of this one to be a vanity prostitute playing with older men, then make light of their dependability

            what no im sorry i wasnt trying to do that, i dont toy with men, we toy with eachother. i didnt mean to insult anyone

            I wish I could smash a hammer through your fricking skull mid-rant. Get the frick off my board moronic b***h

            please

            >no clingy dependent gf
            AAAHHHHHH I NEED ONE

            nobody actually wants one

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I DO WANT ONE FRICK

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            theyre actually the worst.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            SHE CAN RUIN ME IDC I JUST DONT WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            you should seek out therapy, just having a stable and functional relationship can be helpful or at the very least a psychiatrist could prescribe medication to help with your symptoms from this need
            you could probably get insurance to pay for it too

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            what medication?? i dont know anything about insurance i dont know anything about anything

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            probably SSRI's, they may blunten the emptiness
            i can't link it because of spam filter, but pyschology today has a wonderful "find a therapist" feature
            if you are on a fixed income, id recommend looking into CBT

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            wow thank you, i didnt expect anyone to actually try to help

            you can trust me i'm a very trustworthy person ill tell you if you look fat as shit dont worry

            im too scared

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            oh so you lied then and scared of what?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i didnt lie
            scared of people being mean

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i would never be mean to you 🙂 im nice!

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            melon juice on my jeans

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            you're a skelly, like 17 bmi or something.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            omg skinny girl cute

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            you're a skelly, like 17 bmi or something.

            ahhhhh thank you
            i really expected to be called fat as a troll, which i probably will now after posting this
            but thank you

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            so what is it you get from these relationships? does the validation fill a void? do you want doted on and made to feel needed? do you expect unconditional effortless love? what do you give to get the things you want and how does it make you feel?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >so what is it you get from these relationships?
            i get attention and i get to entertain someone, i get to feel wanted and beautiful and loveable
            >does the validation fill a void?
            it really does
            >do you want doted on and made to feel needed?
            who doesnt? i love feeling small and protected and loved
            >do you expect unconditional effortless love?
            absolutely not,
            >what do you give to get the things you want and how does it make you feel?
            i entertain, i give the other person the same attention, validation and security in return, i have fun with them and talk to them

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i get to entertain someone
            meaning what exactly?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i play a part i have a nice aesthetic and i share fantasies, sexual and non sexual, i do what they want and i try to be entertaining suiting their interests, its hard to explain

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            so you're trying to be what they want you to be? like some kind of a role? might explain why you're not feeling fulfilled from the whole thing.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            im being what i want to be, but i want them to get something out of it so i do it for them too

            so it's an act that you're doing then? isn't that a little disingenuous to the person you're essentially courting in these scenarios? do they not ever get mad when they realise you're just playing with them for your own selfish needs? or is that a clear ground rule?

            why are you trying to twist my words to make me appear selfish and mean? they couldnt care less, i send them nudes, they do not care about what i do, i dont lead them on or hurt them. its not like im being disingenuous or lying, im just being what part of myself i love the most

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            mm yes open bob and vagene my darling yesss

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            im not twisting your words to make you seem mean, im giving you my perspective on what i would feel if I was on the receiving end and trying to understand what your perspective is on it

            honestly I think you're just a bit naive and don't mean anything ill but understand that not everyone is going to feel how you feel, especially someone older and more experienced than you

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            im not stupid, obviously i take others feelings into account

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            don't get mad, if you don't want to hear my takes just stop responding

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            im not mad
            i like your questions and replies
            i just dont want you to think im playing with peoples emotions and leading them on or hurting them on purpose

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Okay then, so what I'm saying is I think you're naive, not stupid, and I don't think you're malicious

            but this thing is fulfilling for you, and you keep yourself locked in this cycle to get this fulfilment and not just because you enjoy being what you think these men want you to be

            it just seems a little unnatural to me and a little selfish on your side, and of course you can disagree because I don't know the whole story but maybe that's part of why you feel empty, cause it sounds like you're trying to brute force something that should be natural

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            im tired of waiting for natural love, nobody likes me, i dont know how to talk to people, nobody ever talks to me, i dont go out much and i cant meet anyone. im not ugly, i dont know why nobody ever wants me. i think my aura is offputting

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >nobody likes me
            I like you anon. Don't be so hard on yourself.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            nobody real
            i want somebody to see me and approach me and flirt with me, nobody has ever just flirted with me, i want to be seen as desirable and pretty and i want to be excited and go out on a date with someone and be together forever

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            don't bog yourself down with intangible shit like auras, it's a load of shit

            i know how rough shit is when you just want loved and nobody seems to be able to give you that, I went through it when I was younger too, but if you're not an ogre and you're willing to get burned a couple of times then I guarantee you'll find it no matter how awkward you are or feel, you just need to have a little patience

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i really do think my atmosphere is unapproachable
            i dont ask for much i just want someone to actually want me without having to seek people out online

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            and I guarantee you that there's people out there who really like your atmosphere

            do you put yourself out there much outside of when you're actively seeking people yourself?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i dont know why nobody ever wants me
            It's cause you act like a child

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i want someone to like that i act like a child

            >i hate people in my generation, i hate how people are too scared to do anything
            you mean like how you're too scared to approach a guy despite complaining about how unwanted you supposedly are? You don't actually hate passive men. You hate the fact that they remind you of yourself, whom you hate

            thats not it at all, i dont hold women and men to the same standards, i dont think women should ever have to approach a man, sorry if you find that upsetting but i think that everything evens out fairly if people just stick to their roles, men making the first moves, but women putting in more effort to satisfy and please
            i do hate passive men because they remind me of myself, only because im not a lesbian and i want to date someone masculine and assertive

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            well approaching women in public is considered rapist behavior nowadays, you can thank your fellow women for that

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i hate women and i hate men who believe shit like this

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i hate women
            good gril

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >i want someone to like that i act like a child
            Don't worry hun, there's plenty of pedophiles to choose from out there

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            women are adults with agency, and in order to function in society, they have to act accordingly like every other adult. This includes you as well, whether you like it or not, and the more you regress away from that truth, the more miserable and dysfunctional you will be

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            take my feelings into account my fembot dear and you shall not be lonely anymore

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            so it's an act that you're doing then? isn't that a little disingenuous to the person you're essentially courting in these scenarios? do they not ever get mad when they realise you're just playing with them for your own selfish needs? or is that a clear ground rule?

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      not BPD
      possibly depend personality disorder

  2. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Based if male
    Cringe if femoid

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      HhEeLlPp MmEe!!!!!

  3. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    you need to end the constant cycle of relationship after relationship, for now
    you must understand that while it may seem hard, you can stand on your own
    it will get easier
    try taking a year off from relationships, focus on yourself, exercise and mediate
    id recommend therapy if you can afford it

  4. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    There's nothing wrong or pathological about what you are describing at all. There's something wrong with other people for making you feel like there is

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      >There's nothing wrong or pathological about what you are describing at all
      groomer chomosexual manipulator alert

  5. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I wish I could smash a hammer through your fricking skull mid-rant. Get the frick off my board moronic b***h

  6. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    >no clingy dependent gf
    AAAHHHHHH I NEED ONE

  7. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    im used to being the person vent to and confide in, but I draw the line there, it seems you crave the attention?

  8. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    literally what the frick is wrong with me this is so cringe and stupid

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      ill be honest with you babby jirl

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      why do you crave validation so much? absentee father?

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        no i love my dad hes been here my whole life, honestly i have no idea how im like this with such a great upbringing.

        ill be honest with you babby jirl

        dont trust you

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          you can trust me i'm a very trustworthy person ill tell you if you look fat as shit dont worry

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          fair enough, i guess you're just you then, wired up wrong

  9. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    maybe you should post your breasts anon, that maybe would make you feel better

  10. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I wish i could get some old man online to love me. :C

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      i love you unless youre a man and in that case you should be executed for this trickery

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        i wasn't asking you b***h

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          so you are a man then. go away. yuck. disgusting.

  11. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    be my frickable bangmaid gf, do you live in europe?
    I'm waiting my entire life for a girl to just say she belongs to me and lives with me. how hard can it be JESUS

  12. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    You seem very rapeable and I like that

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      REALLY eek thank you

      >what the hell is a bangmaid
      he wants you to act like his mom and also let him have sex with you. basically cleaning up after him, making him chicken tendies etc

      yuck!

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        The certain kind that would get raped while whimpering and crying, but as long as your tears were wiped and you were cuddled, you'd stick around for more instead of running. That's the vibe

  13. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Well why don't you start talking about what your interests are outside of being groomed by an older man?

  14. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    you are alone. you have online relationships to feel less alone, but edating doesnt make you not alone.

  15. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    i just want to switch my brain off and have someone to protect me and guide me and tell me what to do and handle me all the time

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      And i want to frick Angie Dickinson. Let's see who gets lucky first

  16. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    CAUSE WHO AM I WITHOUT MY VICES
    AND WHOS BEHIND THAT SWEET DISGUISE
    AND WHATS IT LIKE TO BE ALIVE
    WHEN ITS JUST ME MYSELF AND I

    OOOOOH WHEN ITS JUST ME MYSELF AND I

  17. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I'm an older guy that needs a young bawd like you to tie up, abuse, and rape, then cuddle with you afterwards, and you will get swollen pregnant with my seed like a good girl

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      will you not abandon me when i give birth

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        no because I actually want a family, but if you want me to 100% commit to you you have to be completely limitless and submissive to me. how old are you anyway? I'm 34 and not putting a bun in the oven of a hag

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          im 18
          i wish to have a promising relationship and be pregnant by my early 20s so that my baby is healthy and happy, i dont want to waste my prime years

  18. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Old man here. You need an old man to take care of you IRL. I don't even mean like super old. Just someone in their 30s who has some structure and maturity.

  19. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    If you're looking for guys that might dig your type:

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    jk but i hope you find the help that you need. take care and remember that you matter

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