love, betrayal

I'm 24 yrs old guy with two breakups so far. One was when i was 18 which took me almost four years to get over. Another one was when i was 22 which is even harder to forget. Now, even if girls flirt with me, I'm scared or don't have a feeling for sincere love. It only works with my mind, i have stopped thinking with my heart which is what is more worrisome for me.

Although i put up a facade in front of others i know i'm always suffering from solitude.

I host lot of parties with my cousin and friends, some of the worst moments come when everyone's having food. They feed their better halves whereas noone cares for whether i had food or not.

Wish i never went through this.