if you are a trauma troony like me and are out of school with no irl friends then you will inevitably rope. my work is remote and my school is remote and any future job i have will be remote. there is a 0% chance in any possible future where someone in my position "meets new people".
being deprived totally of in person socialization is slowly killing me. to add to that, i feel like i can barely go outside since i got raped when i got out of school and ever since then the few times i went outside in girlmode ive gotten rape threats yelled at me. im completely conditioned to stay outside but at the same time my step dad torments me when im out of my room.
my room is a tomb and ive told my online friends that i am inevitably going to commit suicide in the future and of course they were all sad. it broke me up so much i just wish they never met me. but i got to spend some time with them and they wanted to make the most of the time i have left which is nice.
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my solution has been to move out and eliminate even online friends, now I can scream and pace ruminate and brood and fantasize about sleeping forever in my tiny little tomb without worrying about others at all
that seems like a good idea. but they all keep telling me how much they want to talk to me and how they want to know whats going on. they really want to help me because they cant comprehend how hopeless i really am.
Dummy
whats dumb about it. if my problem is i cant socialize in person then what could they possibly do about it when theyre all on the other side of the world
videochat or smth you dummy
you know thats not the same. you cant go out with them. hug them. play couch co op and eat with them.
True, but still close enough. It is still better than nothing. Socializing isn't to be minmaxed you dummy. The little interractions you have daily are gonna add up and make this at least a little more bearable
it wont. its unbearable. i havent been touched since i was raped. ive video chatted and its nice but its not the same. i want to hug my friends and hang out with them
Dummy, online friendships and long distance relationships can escalate. You often end up meeting in-person especially if that was the plan at the start
nta but moving out and living by myself is a huge dream for me. i hate how rent is so expensive.
i just want to be a depressed girl living in solitude between work days who occasionally brings people over to frick
>who occasionally brings people over to frick
I wish I could get over myself enough to do this
rent is so expensive in la. i cant even die in peace with this shit..
bay area here so i know that feeling of being financially fricked. living in California is fricking disgusting
>now I can scream and pace ruminate and brood and fantasize about sleeping forever in my tiny little tomb
you live in a shitbox apartment and you impotently scream into a cum stained, piss stained, shit stained pillow.
yeah, if i were to do that why would i need anything better? i dont think i deserve it either, im a pretty miserable person.
Where do you even live?
los angeles. and no, im not gonna socialize with a typical angeleno.
yeah i wish this shit state would just burn to the ground all ready
I visit LA often, where around the LA region do you frequent anon?
near lax
wow that's like exactly where I go lol. I used to work around Ladera temporarily. Would take you out for some hawaiian to try and cheer you up anon.
yeah thatd be nice i love the l&l hawaiian place near here :3
If its the one in marina del rey I used to go there all the time
ya ^w^
that's cool! we were probably in there at the same time at some point lol
are you the one in the picture above?
ya im the lichmoder
youre cute. youd have no trouble getting a bf. just make a profile on tinder grindr ad bumble and youll have a proper date in no time. like tomorow at this time you could be in some hot guys arms.
they wouldnt love me. i dont want hook ups like i said
id love you
would you love me when im high on benadryl calling myself an extinguished flesh and glass torch
yes - unconditionally . nothing phases me.
even me smelling like pee cuz my phimosis traps pee and then when i move it leaks out?
yes. i dont mind. thats nothing
you are lying. no one wants a gross peemoder...
nta but that's kinda cute
no. how would your odor affect me genuinely loving you or not? i dont see correlation.
because pee smells gross you wouldnt be able to put up with me. and i am extremely self hating., y ou have no idea
you being self-hating is more of a reason for me to love you
trust me youd get tired of it.
no i wouldnt. itd be like living with a feret. those are smelly animals
have you ever had a ferret ?
I’m pretty sure she’s a transbian
what is your ancestry? like british, french etc
norwegian, german, celtic
Your in la? I’m in burbank drop disc I need a tranner gf to love and protect.
burbank is like an hour away for me 3;
This is why tranners deserve nothing but cum dumps
but i want to be a lovely wife. .
its cute until u have to smell it
you deserve to be washed by a bf that loves you.
I'll tell you this over some l&l's.
;-; even if u wash me it will be back...
that's why you wash again! (and also stretch)
o trust me i stretch lmao. but all it takes is one pee for me to smell gross again 3;
wrong pic heres the more ~extensive~ one
What is your zodiac sign?
damn this really makes me want to reenact what I told you last night, but that's not the kind of stretch I meant lol
o what kind of stretch then?
bottom. service top if i really love them and they want it
I meant stretching for your phimosis lol
but by all means please show more stretches it's really nice
oh, ive tried stretching but it never really changes it mine is very tight.
itd hurt too much and i like having foreskin
you're so cute lmao
ty
why not get circumcised?
Can you post this again but with feet showing pls
ok passoid
i get >twinkhon -ed in passgen constantly. dont give me that shit.
Get a job where you can go into the office
i feel like you're currently having tunnel vision, maybe things would turn around at some point.
if i have tunnel vision then ive had it for 2 years. people say stuff like this but can never think of a single realistic scenario where it turns around.
well there isn't really a specific time frame for how long it might last, maybe you're not seeing the whole picture right now..
this therapy circle speak bullshit does notihng for me anymore im sorry. some people just have miserable lives and thats the end of it
stop calling me a dummy >.< and any kind of in person meeting would cost hundreds of dollars that none of us have.
OP where in the world are you?
do u want to go to the movies with me?
i would like that. im in la
hi can i come ٩( 'ω' )و
Why not get a bf
Go to bars, you always meet the best/worst friends ar bars. Carry a weapon on you, you can pepper spray or a gun if people who yell rape threats at you start to get too brave.
Death doesn't have to be your end. You can be mean to the ones being mean to you, give back the fear they struck in you.
im not old enough to drink.
leo
Are you a top or bottom or vers?
make yourself homeless so you are forced to travel (me rn)
or play vrchat (bad idea)
sorry i already have a fear of rape that makes me agoraphobic im not gonna put myself in the situation to be 100% raped lol
all I want is a femboy that I can cuddle everynight like my life depends on it, but I mean I also want to get fricked too 😛 Daddy here
t. mtf bottom but also willing to service top.
discord?
rakshas#6883
daddy added ya
awwww cute!
lucky guy, i hope he treats her well
if she lived near me i woulda snatched her up too