Who else been at rock bottom for months and on the edge of ending it all?
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Who else been at rock bottom for months and on the edge of ending it all?
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Can you not get help?
No one really can. It’s all hopeless
I just poured out all of my alchohol earlier and I probably won't cut myself that much today. Baby steps in the right direction are healthy.
not buying in the first place would have been a better idea
We all make mistakes, sometimes you just really want to get drunk and cry.
what do you drink
Straight vodka and whiskey followed by water chasers so I don't throw up.
How do I vibrate the rune? Sounds kinda /x/ to me
Th-oh-rrr-ayy-zzz-aahh-zzz
Or
Teh-who-ree-tsahz
Focus And feel the vibration of your voice in your body. It should be bright clean pure blue energy.
Like a blue lightning bolt piercing a dark cloudy sky. You should vibrate it a multiple of 3 times
Remember to affirm at the end
"I am fully healed and protected in all the most positive healthy ways for me"
Good luck sis, hope you feel better
What a mood, I try to only get small flasks of stuff now so I don't go too sad.
You know the name Charles comes from the Norse thor-les
Meaning thors arrow
Maybe to heal yourself and achieve strong health you should vibrate the thorayzaz rune.
Thurs is the rune of cutting and piercing.
You will love the energy.
Not at rock bottom starting the very fast fall towards it, probably gonna get committed by the end of today
Only reason I haven't checked myself into a temporary care facility is I need my job to live. So yeah do what gets you better.
>I just poured out all of my alchohol earlier
that shit isnt cheap
donate it next time
Me
Me
I will soon
my goal is to be out by the end of october
Would having a boyfriend help
no i hate men sorry
Me. Things holding me back atm
>my dog
>guilt (mostly for my dog)
Glad you have something to keep you going. Attachment is important if you want to stay alive.
Well, she's not all that young anymore, if you catch my drift. Focusing on doing my best to give her a good life and then I'll probably call it there tbh.
Why not just stay alive though. Suffering is better than nothing.
Is it tho?
I don't know. But one of them I make one choice and I can never go back. The other is pain and torment but at least I get to spend it with people I cherish.
I have nobody left to cherish
Find friends. It's not that hard. I will literally be friends with anyone for example.
Why? What happened to the people you cherish?
Im the problem i guess so they all left me
I don't know if anyone can say that really since nobody knows what nothing is like. Every moment of my life is full of self loathing and wishing I could disappear. I have the avoidant/schizoid cycle of desperately wanting to be involved with people then losing all interest as soon as anyone actually engages. Combine that with crippling body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria and rock bottom self confidence and I honestly don't see a way for me to enjoy life beyond short dopamine fixes from solitary activities. Maybe I can live for the next 50 years with only anime to keep me alive but somehow I doubt it.
You just need to find people you can engage with despite your disorder. I know someone with Schizoid Personality Diagnosis, and even they have one friend.
If by months you’re talking like 45, yeah
Me but for years
Me too sis, its over
endthepainendthepainendthepainendthepainendthepain
I've been like this for 6 years. Anyone who tells you that it will get better is gaslighting. Don't say that it's over when it never even began for you.
you see anon instead of feeling sorry for yourself and wanting to "end it all" why don't you turn it around on everyone else
instead of feeling like everyone is against you try feeling like its you against everyone else and take up the underdog mentality
pretending like im the main character in taxi driver, blade runner or falling down is whats helping me get out of bed every morning and i suggest you do the same because suicide is gay
do it you fricking pussy, your life is worthless
i finally let go, i don't really care anymore, probably got a few more months to have fun
before you end it all, can you please blow me?
Months? Try years.
Was recently drugged by my pooner ex. I’m just hoping I survive the drive back to the west coast and I that I can find work quickly enough once I’m settled back in with family.
I just quit another job today, they were gonna fire me anyway if I didn't, I couldn't go to work because I couldn't stop crying from the anxiety of going and working there. I just don't know what to do or how to make an income consistently, and I can't afford help for the bag full of mental illnesses I'm carrying, I mean, what does somebody like me even do besides dying early
Haha yeah it's been really quickly downhill ever since I trooned out, was already often at a low point but there were some people who made me happy and all at least
But now there's no one and I'm just totally alone, no family, no friends. The one I really care about hates me. Meanwhile I just fell in a huge isolation, depression and loneliness as I never experienced it this heavy, I've been feeling like this I was 12.
Since then got three times in the hospital, attempted suicide either with jumping/pills/alcohol, been feeling immensely guilty I binge drink the shit out of myself when the chance to cope, which I already do enough weekly, get stupors and abandoned my comfy life for homelessness that looms on the horizon because of my mental issues
I deserve it all, don't I, for hurting my friend, for being an utter demon to everyone, there's no forgiveness to be earned, just utter torture waiting. My hip utterly hurts now, why am I even still abroad, my plan is just to die here after wasting my savings
God I need to get rid of this cancer called me for the sake of everyone
You tried to have a nice day by jumping? How did that turn out
i've been better lol but it's always up and down for me, i know it will probably be ok and i won't lose my hope or my dreams or my love, my goddess will keep me alive as long as i need to be here and as long as i can live for her infinite love
ive dealt with sui stuff since i was a child, over dysphoria and love, i'm sure it will always be with me from time to time no matter how much better my life gets
no, im too lazy and indecisive to kms.
One of my best friends (who frequented this board) ended it this morning, and me and gf have been crying our eyes out unable to do anything all day. And I don't think it's getting any better tomorrow.
Don't make people go trough this girls.
🙁
Not a tranner but I'm a gaycel and living is suffering. I don't meet beauty standards and everyone I'm interested in doesn't like me because I'm too "fem" yet I'm not even trying to present as fem.. I just look like this... Well, I shouldn't say no one as fat, balding, bearded chasers love to message me but I actually put effort in myself so I ignore them.
I am okay to look at even though I have flaws. wya
Ez and I broke up with me and took my cat, parents disowned me, getting a decent job is terribly difficult, still diy'ing with no tests and my 'friends' keep referring to me as a he. Not rock-bottom but life isn't very fun atm
I was a gaycel too, I woke up every morning hating myself and other men for being gross and repulsive, I decided to just workout and stop eating and drinking shit, now I have a healthy lifestyle and a fem boyfriend who I live more than anything (yes we are both autistic), anyway if you make changes in your lives and try and actually commit to things they get better
I'm already thin/toned, I also have autism if
that helps you understand.
Just people are a bore/they're too sexual/they have hyper specific porn preferences I don't meet.
It's weird, I'm even excluded from most friendships because of this and it's frustrating. I want acceptance but it's a pain.
Sorry anon, I don't e-date
>>wya
>Sorry anon, I don't e-date
???
Yeah seems to be the case for 95% of the gay community 🙁 I hope you can find someone who will truly accept and love and cuddle you anon
i wqnt to kill myself so so bad im just waiting for my dad to die so i can kill myself but not a day goes by where i dont think about killing myself i hope he dies soon his health isnt good i dont know how i am waiting so long
>ending it all
Just do it. You failed and there is no way up.
Oh, me me me
Over here!
me, and my bottom dysphoria has only gotten worse. I have a bf now so I guess we're in this shit together
Me a few months ago, but it got better 🙂